Thursday, July 19, 2012

It's 2 Days Away

In 2975 minutes I will be married.
The world will stop, for even just a second, as I marry the love of my life.

I will look into his eyes, and he will be my husband, the one that I will be with for eternity.
Everything will change--for good. 

I will be able to wake up next to my best friend.
I will come home to my best friend.
We won't have to worry about when I will see him.
I'll start my own family.
I am going to be a real-real person.
We will be able to make dinners, lounge around and just be together. 
I know it sounds silly, but going from barely seeing each other for an hour a day to anything more than that, it's going to be really, really nice.

I'll be honest, I'm nervous. Not as nervous as I was for the temple, but still, pretty nervous. I guess I'm more nervous for the future. I've known all along it's Carlos, and he's mine. I'm just nervous how our life is going to pan out. But I'll decide now, I just want to be happy. I want the Gospel to play a central role in my life, because of the gospel, I know what it most important, family, Heavenly Father, and love.

I can't wait for the adventure to begin.
Let's a-go! :)


Tuesday, July 17, 2012

The Men Tell All

I hate Chris.
I seriously think that Kalen is better than Chris.
Chris is such a dramatic, whiney, pathetic little boy.

And the faces he makes?
Don't get me started.

I love The Bachelorette, such a guilty pleasure show.

I am definitely team Jef--with one f.

She seems so much happier with Jef....and they seem better for each other.

Oh, so much drama. 
So much fun.

I like it, it's better than thinking about the things that I have to do...

4 more days! :)


Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Testing Centers are EVVVVVIIIIILLLLL

If I could list all of the things that make me crazy, like hoppin' mad, I'd probably be here all night.

So, I'll just narrow in on just one thing  that has managed to make me go bonkers in the past couple of days.

The Testing Center

Maybe I've just been pampered at BYU, or whatever, but they have this lovely thing called charging it to your account, which means, if you have to pay a late fee or buy a pencil or something, it is charged to your student account, and you don't have to cough up the money right there and then.

At UVU, you have to pay cash or check.

Who even uses a check these days? Your grandma, I bet.
Nobody freaking uses checks. 

For some reason or another, I had a $5 bill floating around, and I used to pay the evil testing center.

Let's face it, all testing centers are evil.
It's a fact.

I'm tired.
I hate money.

11 days.
Oh yay.
Oh joy.

Heaven help our families.


Monday, July 2, 2012

Hold Up. Wait a Minute.

I'll be married in less than 19 days.

My life is going to change forever.

And I am excited beyond belief.

One of my friends from church, gave me this little nugget of advice:

You might think that you are doubting if you want to get married. 
It's a huge change. 

I felt the same way. I keep feeling these feelings that I shouldn't marry my husband. But I asked the Lord, and he said it was right, but I still felt those feelings. 

Then I realized, the feelings of doubt, inadequacy, were coming from me. 
Those doubts were the doubts I had about myself. 

I had doubts if I would be able to raise a family, if I would be a good wife, a good mother. 
I was not doubting the relationship I had with my husband. 

I had doubts about me. 

I wanted to jump up and down and hug that sister.

It was just what I needed. It was the answer I was looking for.
I had recently felt some jitters. Some doubt about what I was doing.

Was this what I was supposed to be doing?
Was this right?

I was so confused because I already knew those answers. I knew that Carlos and I was right.

I just didn't know why I felt so unsettled.

Now I know. I should probably work on believing in myself.

As things move forward, I am so excited to get married to my best friend and confidant.

Good times are in store for sure.